Sometimes, life just gets in the way. Way in the way. I recently lost my job, and then was given exactly 2.5 hours notice that I had to vacate my apartment. I managed to get my pets and a few items out, but all of my altar items, all of my magickal books except for 3 are lost. I lost 3 Tarot decks as well, 2 of them ones that I am not sure can be replaced. All my ritual items, all of my rituals, spells, spell books, etc are gone. Fortunately for whatever reason I had NOT started a Book of Shadows, so that would not have been lost.
So my animals and I are living at my best friend’s house. She and her mom are devout Christians, but know of my religious path. But here I sit, with nary a candle to burn. All of my magickal work will have to be via visualization until I am able to get my own place again and once again collect all my magickal tools.
I am sure that there is a lesson in all of this that I am to learn, although I cannot see it right now. But it could also be a blessing as the place I was living was not a good place to be living. Very bad neighborhood, horrible landlords, etc. Perhaps this is all for the better.
I did get my first call for an interview the other day and I have since had the interview. I am now waiting for the beginning of next week to see if I will be called for another interview or possibly just hired outright. I am hoping to be hired as there is no chance of my getting my own place again until I have a job. Unfortunately, unlike in Stephenie Meyer’s “The Host” the world does not run without money. 
Tools are just that – tools. Ritual truly comes from within. Magic as practiced by those who walk a Pagan/Wiccan path requires only WILL.
Tools are fun and useful. They help with focus. But they are NOT the essence.
Maybe, among other things, this will help you learn to do that better. And to be able to focus without tools, in a crowd, with noise and distractions… That only happens with practice and time.
Brightest of Blessing