I haven’t been feeling very witchy the past few weeks. I guess it is because living in a house of Christians makes it very difficult to do anything regarding my faith. After having had one roommate basically kick me out because I am Wiccan and she was told by her church officials that she couldn’t continue to live with me and be a good Christian/Mormon, I am loathe to rock the boat here by doing anything that will allow me to express my faith.
I did however stop while walking my dog last night to appreciate the beauty of the full moon (I know it was full last night because it’s Waning Gibbous now, and is at 99% so it was either full last or Friday night) and to breathe in some of the crisp night air. I am hoping that I will be able to have at least a bit of fun with Samhain but we’ll see.
I feel at times that I am falling into a depression. Blogging no longer really appeals to me, I keep doing it because I have some work that I get paid for on my blogs. I sleep most of the day and only come up for air at night when I need to fix supper for myself and the roommates, then I spend all night awake playing on my computer, reading, or playing a video game. I am not enjoying life or anything else, and I know it is because I do not have a job that provides me a decent income that I can live on. I have to rely on the pittance I get for my blogging and on the kindness of my roommates. My job search has proven fruitless.
My issue is that I don’t know what to do to get myself out of this depression. I cannot just go to the doctor and get meds because I have no insurance and have no money. I can only hope that by trying to blog semi-regularly I can at very least bring myself some sort of therapy and maybe get myself back on track.
{{{{LadyA}}}}
i am so sorry to read of your situation. Depression is hard to cope with with all the support in the world and even harder when you lack a way to get the help you need.
I hope you do keep blogging – it is great therapy (tho’ I know its harder to do when I’m having a rough time) and certainly you’re not alone out here in the blogosphere with these feelings and problem.
I hope things get better soon!!
Blessings
I recommend cooking seasonal recipes. It’s one of the easiest and most rewarding ways to celebrate one’s faith in nature all year round.
When I was an inch away from my parents disowning me because of my faith, I went through a similar depression- the only thing that really helped me get through was working on my BOS.
I don’t know if you have one or are working on one, but that was my favorite/only way of taking time to be religious.
Just a thought.
I hope things get better for you.
Anne