It seems that I am once again seeking the right spiritual path for me. I suppose a big part of it is the fact that no matter how much I have meditated, no matter how much I have tried to get in the correct frame of mind during rituals, I never experience that closeness to the Goddess that I see other Wiccans and Pagans talking about on their blogs.
I have identified myself as Wiccan for the past 6 years – I started in December of 2003 – but have yet to have any sort of patron deities. I have no deities that I specifically ascribe to, which of course, is not really a problem, I simply called them Goddess & God. But the closeness that I craved is simply not there. No amount of meditation, ritual, etc has brought me any closer.
Another problem I find is that although at first it felt like I was “home” in my Wiccan faith – now it seems more like I am a guest in someone else’s house – a guest that may well have overstayed my welcome.
So I am once again seeking to find the right path for me. I am trying different things – an experiment if you will. Right now I am going back to the Christian church my best friend attends. I am attending Bible study on Wednesday, reading the Bible, and going to Sunday services as well. If after a couple of months it still does not feel right, I will move on. I will endeavor to start anew with Wicca and Paganism – see if one of them fits me. If not, I will look to things such as Buddhism for spiritual fulfillment.
I know the right path is out there, and I know that it is possible that my needs have changed – that Goddess is telling me that this is not the path I need to tread right now. Either way, it is a great possibility that this blog may cease to exist if my path leads me elsewhere.
Please know that no matter what path I find at the end of my experiment to be the one I choose, I will always love and cherish my Wiccan and Pagan friends, and that no matter what, my mind is always open to the fact that my path is not the right path for others.
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My interpretation: Everyone knows that Justice is blind. With her signature blindfold, scales, and sword, Justice reminds us that there is a balance to things. Simply because we think that something is not right or not fair does not make it so, and she reminds us that we must figuratively blind ourselves to make sure that we are seeing things from an objective point of view. Perhaps finding that objectivity is what you need to do in order to find the answers you seek.
Interpretation in the book: This fae wishes you to understand your power and your responsibility. If you are wondering why you are facing a situation, look to your past actions. If you can see how you brought yourself to this place, you can perhaps find a way to balance your karma. If you are facing a decision of how to behave in a situation, consider the future ramifications. Choose your actions wisely, and carefully make a bed you will be happy to sleep in. – From A Guide to Mystic Faerie Tarot by Barbara Moore.
For me, Justice has always been about pointing out when you need to be objective. The reason Justice is blind is so that she can be objective when facing a decision. I usually find her in spreads where a decision must be made and where it appears that there is bias toward one side or the other.
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My interpretation: Our bright and sunny fae of The Sun holds an infant on her lap. Light and love are necessary in order to nurture anything – relationships, plants, animals, people – and The Sun reminds us of this. Her cheerful disposition reminds us that not everything is bad and that we must remember to look for the good in things.
Interpretation in the book: The answer you find here in the Sun fae’s garden is a happy one. You can expect a time of happiness, joyous optimism, and wondrous energy. This is a real gift. Enjoy! – From A Guide to Mystic Faerie Tarot by Barbara Moore.
I’ve had The Sun show up in spreads where everything else more or less pointed to a situation that was not as good as it could be – hence where I see that she reminds us that not everything is bad. But – her sunny disposition is obviously going to provide a happy answer when the rest of the cards show a happy situation! 
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